Issue #002 was one of the biggest learning journeys of my life.

About 2 months ago, when I started all this, I started going really deep into myself and my history and began understanding a lot about myself, confronting identities, motivations, feelings, and limitations at the same time, I read a quote, it went something like:

“Once you find your calling it will drag you through your shadow.”

I thought it was a great bit of synchronicity - a little nod, from reality or myself, of approval and support. I had no idea how far it all would go, or how exhausting it would be. Again, this needed revision because the tone of my soul had changed so much from the tone that incepted the issue.

I’ve been so reflective, so thoughtful. So much hidden pain has begun surfacing as my alexithymia lessens. I’m needing to listen, let go, lest I get crunched by the tight box I trapped my rapidly expanding self within so many years ago. There’s no helping it happening, both the expansion and discomfort and pain of holding on to the past, unaware of why I feel the way I do, not knowing that the very composition of my Self is it’s cause.

It needs to die so I can live.

I’m so tired... but this is the best thing I’ve ever created, in a very anarchic way <3

I love you, Marley <3 xx thank you for sticking with this, with me, with everything, and never giving up on me. I love you so much, and I’m so grateful I’m all yours x

You’ll do great regardless <3 just go easy on yourself, rest, relax, let it go, all of it, when you can, without force, either way xx

I love you <3 I love you <3 I love you xx

So, so, so very much <3 xx

You fucking amazing person x